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But I have been babysitting like all the time and just recently finding out that the lady Katina that I was babysitting for was a coke, heroin, and opium addict and just got out of Jail....I wish someone would have told me about that b4...her mom was telling me that she was at school when in fact she was in Jail....and to top it off her car broke down and she has been using me drive her everywhere to do things. today I had to take her to Secretary of state and she was like do you want tog o to coney thinking that we would get it for free cuz Charlie and her sister work there (thats how I got the job)...and I didnt bring any money with me cuz I thought I wasnt going to be going out to eat and she didnt either so I had to ask Charlie to take it up and his dad got mad...not at me but her becuz I guess she asked Charlies dad for money one time...which is not cool cuz she doesnt even work there....but its crazy now I am just at my parents and not going to babysit cuz Im being used Fuck why do I have to be so nice so that people can take advantage of me....

Last weekend was Alison's 21st....yah my friends are turning 21 some how I feel like i just turned 21 (even tho im 22) cuz now I can go to the bar with my friends :) We had a blast tho for her bday...I had a 32oz. Margarita and I was good....I didnt have another drink all night I dont drink that often so it did me in lol....

This weekend I dont have a lot going on might have some people over one day this weekend...but today heather and I are going shopping and getting lunch YAH! girl time! I think we might rent a Morgan Freeman movie HAHAHAHA! I think Sunday Charlie and I are going to the cider mill yum donuts, apples and cider! oh boy.... 

Life out on my own is very nice.....I do miss my mom, and she misses me more and I just feel quilty for leaving her but it was going to happen sooner or later...but the fact that I dont have to live under my Dads roof is awesome....he was holding me back a lot....I didnt feel like an adult becuz he treated me like a 14 year old and had control of my car and everything...so i feel free now...about time

but Im off have to take the kids that I babysit to day care

Current Location:	Down the street
Current State of Mind:	crazy
Tunes:	Janet Jackson

Oh the big news I got my wedding dress YAH! It was only $70 which is great becuz I saw the same one at Davids bridal for like $300 quite the difference...it needs a little spicing up but with some thread, needles and some ribbon it will look fantastic....and to top off the dress (or top down I guess) I found my shoes at Payless they are soo hottt and they were only $3.50 they were on sale and we got half off...they were just my size the only pair of those left and they look perfect with my dress......next thing it the veil and jewelry. I also have to pick out my hair style....I know who is going to do it Charlies moms friend she does hair great very modern I have to get it done once b4 the wedding so I can go pick out my veil ...some much stuff to do.....and only 264 days till the wedding....crazy...

Last week Charlie and I went over to his aunts and she asked us to pick all the pears off her tree in the back yard...I was thinking it was going to a little pear tree and it would only take like 10 min to do well it was a huge tree and it took like 2 hours....well I was up in the tree on a ladder and i was shaking the branch above me and boom a pear hits me right in the nose...and pears arent light so needless to say I have a broken nose again! haha btu wwe got paid $100 to do it I guess it was worth it lol

Then I was so undecided about colors as far as the bridemaids becuz I needed to know what they were becuz I have to pick out things for the wedding to tie in the colors like the cake, decorations, and flowers...so I asked all my girls what they liked it was between A light blue and orange or Light pink and light green and they all said the blue and orange were their favs so we are going with those colors My two maids of honor Alison and Jenny are going to be in Blue and the rest of the girls are going to be in Orange (actually its called palm beach coral) its going to be so pretty....

Nothing much else is going on, just been so busy with everything......

Current Location:	In my Place
Current State of Mind:	creative
Tunes:	Coldplay

But oh man is it good to be ome back in the Air conditioning.... I cant wait to go again...we are all planning on going labor day weekend... yah

Current Location:	In the Air conditioning
Current State of Mind:	cold
Tunes:	Jack Johnson

Tonite Charlie and I were supposed to be hitting up the tigers game and the bar but we have other pans now YAH!... Tom called Charlie yesterday and asked us to go see the Counting Crows and the Goo Goo Dolls tonite in the VIP section....I am so excited I love the Goo Goo Dolls and I have always wanted to see em....they are just one of the bands that I had a on a list to see...I cant wait...

I cant believe I woke up this early...just got up to go to the bathroom and then payed back down and Started thinking about going camping next weekend...I cant wait its so exciting.....

Any way sorry to people who invited me places this weekend I am booked this weekend and next....sorry...

Current Location:	Pitching a Tent
Current State of Mind:	cheerful
Tunes:	Black Balloon

The main situation is the wedding. My dad is pushing and pushing for us to make up our minds what we want to do but we just need time we have all the time in the world....but anyways we have made a final decision...just have talk to my dad...see he said that if we eloped he would give us a down payment on a house rather than paying for the wedding...at first I wanted a huge wedding ya know what girl doesnt...but with all the stress and stuff and some thinking charlie and I came to the conclusion that hey yea the wedding tis the biggest day of our life...btu which would any one choose...money for one day or money for a house that you will have for a long time? So we still have to talk to my dad but thats want we want...I mean  we will still have a wedding at the church and as for a reception..Charlies family is good friends with Andiamos and we are going to go to the one thats a hall on 14 and vandyke...Charlies dad is taking care of that....so all in reality charlie and I could get married next week....but we are not sure when exactly when yet....definaly after september becuz thats when my cousin is getting married....but I am very excited becuz Andiamos yum....

Lately I have been really fighting with my dad.,..I mean hard core....see up until now I always thought there might be some nice in him so i had faith that some day maybe we could have a good father daughter relashionship....but when we fought last week...he was so mean to me...I mean he said thigns that no father should say to his daughter....he was truley mean...the main thing was about me not having a job right now....he acts like I never had a ajob and that I dont want to get one...well ok I was the first one to get a job out of my sister and borther...my sister just got her first job last month...and he is harpin on me...but whatever I have made peace with the situation...I cant do anything for him any more I have to do it for my self....I mean I got all A's on my report card for the first time ever besides gym classes, and he didnt say good job he said why cant you do that all the time....he supports his family but is not a good father...any one of my friends that have ever met him are scared of him....when my sister and i had to go to court for shop lifting like 6 years ago...the lady in charge weas asking us if everytihng was ok at home and if our dad treated good...we said yea...ha So honestly I dont want him to walk me down the isle...I would like walk by myself...or have my mom...this whole situation has got my thinking things and I dont know what to do...sometimes you need that parental guidance..but i have an stone heart closeminded father, and a mother who hasnt really interacted with people outside the house in like 10 years...Dont get me wrong I love my mom and we have a great relashionship but she is more of a friend than some one who can give good advice.....

So this weekend was awesome....friday Charlie and I got the season of Roswell...he has never seen it and i know Charlie would like it...so we got tht and stayed home and watched that all night...saturday was packed up...first My sister my mom, my aunt Paula and cousin Alicia went to my cousin Dave and Maries wedding shower out in southgate..had soem good food got a bunch of prizes and it was cool to see what they got to give us some ideas for ours....then we came home...chilled for a bit...then went over to kristinas for her smokeout....had agood time drank a bottle of wine yum...Kristina and Ad left for a bit and so charlie and I had to watch their 7 kids and it was crzy at first but charlie got them to play the statue game haha so they all were quite till they got back..but charlie was great with the kids...he really is great with em becuz I know he is a kid at heart...so I cant wait to begin popping em out...So thenafter that we were supposed to go up to Terry's terrace with a bunch of people charlie and i got there and it looked like white trash central so we decided to go else where....So we ended up going to Waves on Jefferson...Charlie and I got there first and we ended up ordering this drink thats is in a huge fish bowl...not really realizing how big it was......we got it and started drinking b4 everyone came....then Tom, Whitney, Ken, Katie, and Brian came up there and we were all drinking...and chatting it was a good time...but Charlie and I couldnt even fiish half of the fish bowl becuz we were getting really drunk...it was a long island with blue corroco...so we were getting smashed...Whitney and I went out and danced for one song...but the crowd was an older one so they were playing liek late 70's early 80's music yuk!...but Tom said that the last timethey came up there is was boomin with young people....I was talking to Brian and he is a Sous Chef in the Renissance Center downtown....I guess he is a great chef...btu the crazy thign is is that he works with one of Charlies bros best friends...small world...
But anyways were we supposed to go camping with Tom and Whitney at the end of the month...but we thought we had Charlies reunion...turns out that its next weekend and camping is the following week...so this weekend we have the reunion its a whole weekend thing friday the guys are going to the tigers game and the women are going to a bar...then saturday we are goign to his Aunt Patties which is the mansion in GP and we are goign swimming, and such its going to be great...then sunday the whole family reunion is goign on a yacht and going to go down the detroit river...Im so excited....the yacht is the one from the GP yacht club....
So then the following weekend Charlie and I are going camping up at Burt Lake with Tom and Whitney...we are gogint to leave thursday and come back sunday...I love camping...we actually went out yesterday and bought a tent, two folding chairs, and a table that folds up and has an umbrella and four seats...so we are really pumped 

well I guess thats it

Current Location:	Under the table and dreaming
Current State of Mind:	determined
Tunes:	DMB

So Charlie and added 2 more people to our bridal party, he choose AD and I wanted Heather...so now we have 8 each...

Bridesmaids                       Grooms Guys

Jenny J                                   John
Alison                                     Bill
Danielle                                 Tim M
Colleen                                  Tim D
Heather                                  Joe S
Jenny C                                  Evan
Kelly J                                     Mike J      
Kristina                                   AD

Thats not who is going with who but just who is in it....

Any way I need a flower girl....I have an Idea for a flower girl but I dont know...see my neighbors girls are pretty much part of the family we are as closer to them then any or our family and I would like the both of them to be the flower girls...how ever one will 15 and one will be 11 my mom says that is too old for a flower girl...but why cant it be done...they are still girls not women yet...so why not they  can have pretty dresses and just throw flowers on the isle
I dont know what to think....does anyone have any suggestions?

Current Location:	Digging for Clams
Current State of Mind:	drunk
Tunes:	Jack Johnson

P.S. Victorias Secret has a sweet ass sale going on right now....

Current Location:	The pants party
Current State of Mind:	bouncy
Tunes:	Jack Johnson

I think she was doing some 80's dance

What a little sass

Sexy

Thats my sister

we just wanted to tackle each other I think

Us again

and Again

Heather and laurel

Laurel and Charlie
Joe holded up the fort...

Jimmy Johns

Heather Drinking her BEER

Awww so cute

Heathers bodacious bod

All the girls gettin funky

Charles

Charlie drinking some beers

Chaz sun bathing

Brittany

Current Location:	coolin off
Current State of Mind:	crazy
Tunes:	Jack Johnson

But anyways I finaly have picked all my Bridesmaids...yah now I dont have to worry about that :) they are:

1. My sister -maid of honor
2. Alison -maid of honor
3. Danielle -bridesmaid
4. Kristina -bridesmaid
5. My cuz Kelly -bridesmaid
6. Charlies Cuz Jenny -bridesmaid
7. Colleen -bridesmaids
I know I picked the right people...ones that have always been there for me...never doubted me...I guess just the coolest people

any way here are the pics from the party

My Big Bro

AD getting everyone on tape

Me and My Cousin Dave and his fiancee Marie

Charlie and Kristina

Goofy one of Charlie and Kristina

The Hot dogs...ewwww

Random one of Kristin

Heather Joe Brittany and carl sniffing the air in the background

Mike keepin it real

Ad Giving his awesome speech

Everyone making some toast

AD Shaved his head just for the party.....what a swell guy

Yum Champagne

I dont know

The toast

Mr. and Mrs. Dallas

Charlie and My cousin Kelly

Charlie and Mike kickin it

The infamous three

The coolest person ever..Danielle

I think Brittany was trying to make some clevage...good luck

Wallace and Erin

The most fun you'll ever have

Sister picture

Random

whoa almost fell

a look at brittany at a different angle ha

Who wants some whiskey slush?

Sexy Wallace

Up close and personal with The Stephanie Veryser

Not paying attention

Me and Jill

Strick a pose

The hardest you'll ever laugh....my Journalism girls exoh

By the way I am going to see Ringo Starr this friday :) I am so excited :)

Current Location:	:)
Current State of Mind:	bouncy
Tunes:	Ringo Starr

Also we went shopping at Kroger and got tons of fruit and organic stuff...yum yum...

there is so much to do foor this party and a little time...we are getting things together thursday setting up for the most part like table and lights so we know how many we need and such...then saturday we make everything and buy the last minute things...it'll be fun I cant wait...Iam so excited :)

Current Location:	In the tree house
Current State of Mind:	cheerful
Tunes:	Jack Johnson

So any way tonite we are making list and stuff for the party...so we knnow what we need for Saturday...We have to make sure we have enough chairs as well as tables...its not going to be problem we just have to borrow some peoples....we just got to make sure how many people are coming and stuff...

Also I am trying to find a job...Kristina said I could get one at her work which I am goign to go check out today...other wise there is this job at Josephs bakery on mack and they are looking for clean-up hey I can do that :)
My sister got a job at Tim Hortons' on Harper...she works in the morning so you and bug her hehe

I have 2 more weeks of school yah! and In two of my classes I dont have anything more due becuz I turned everything in early...yah me and in my other class we dont have a final becuz our final is our presentation and I have been told by a bunch of people that I am a great public speaker...yah for me but this school year is going out with bang....

Current Location:	Charlies house
Current State of Mind:	jubilant
Tunes:	Jack Johnson Upside down

We didnt get home till 8:00pm last night I am soo pooped right now..it was a great way to spend our 2 years Anniversary together

These are the pictures...didnt take too many

The bridge

Sorta View of the Island from our room

Me

Charlie

Me and Charlie

Light house by the Island

Baby Duckies by our room

Me and Charlie on the Island

Yeah not that many but a few good ones :)

Current Location:	Some where else
Current State of Mind:	sleepy
Tunes:	Jack Johnsom

So me and Charlie have been eating Organic foods latley...that its too and we have been doing soooo good...We mostly have been going to Kroger only cuz certain things there are a lot cheaper than at a health food store. We have been eating cereal, apples,rice crisps and as of yesterday we found these organic cookies and they are like mint Oreos (only a different brand) they are so good even better than the Oreos....I was amazed....So being that we have only been eating oragnic I have already lost about 5lbs...which is so cool....yes organic food is little more pricey than other foods but thats only becuz organic farmers dont get subsidies from the government so you have to pay the actual price. Crazy the government will help farmers who grow food that has hormones and such but wont help the farmers who are making quality and healthy food. WTFAlso we havent been eating meat for a while and yesterday we went over to Charlies parent to have dinner and they had chicken and I was like well chicken is lighter than say beef so we'll be ok...not really it messed up my stomach...meat doesnt digest well in our bodies it sits there for a while....its crazy how we quit drinking pop and eating meat and for one I dont miss either of them... and second they make me sick now if I were to have them...pop doesnt even taste good to me any more...YAH!

What shitty weather this is...I dont mind rain but why is it so cold....I wanted to have a bon fire last night, but mother nauture had a different plan :( So me and Charlie just came back to my house and watched some old episodes of the OC (becuz it wasnt on last night) We needed our OC fix....

This morning I have to go and get an oil Change becuz I am going to bbe driving up to Mackinac next weekend....It's mine and Charlies two year anniversary. Wow two years that awesome :) I love my baby...he is so good to me.

Current Location:	In my place
Current State of Mind:	blah
Tunes:	Jack Johnson

I got my mid term grade fro two fo my three classes...and I am getting a 97% in one and 95% in the other...Yah for Laurel I am actually kinda Smart :)

Sooo....my sister is home from :/ really sucks becuz I cleaned the whole damn room and she comes home and trashes it...also she has been a bitch since she has gone up to state cuz she thinks she is better than everyone..ha! then she says she is "more responsible now" becuz she went away for a year....to me it doesnt matter you're still just out of high school and you can tell also...how is she responsible if she has got John to daddy her while shes up there...she cant be by herself...and some of the things she has been doing lately are nasty...im not gettign into detail but what is she thinking...

The big party is in a few weeks I have gotten a lot of R.S.V.P's its going to be a lot of fun...I get to see a lot of peple that I havent seen in a long time...so exciting....

This thursday is going to be packed....first we have to eat dinner at Charlies parrents then we are going over to Alison's for a bon fire...Lets hope for NO rain :)I love bon fires and I love Alison...so what a good combo ;0

thats it 

When you're so happy all you want to feel is a little pain to know that it's real
When you're so sad all you want to feel is a little joy to know that you're still real
Why can't one have both?

Current Location:	London
Current State of Mind:	curious
Tunes:	Coldplay

Then one sunday morning Charlie and I were cruising down Jefferson and watched the sun rise...this is my most favortite pic I've taken

Thats it I know its a lot of pics

Current Location:	Rome
Current State of Mind:	determined
Tunes:	BNL Stunt

So tomorrow is 4:20......which is crazy cuz I cant even smoke becuz I have to do a drug test sometime next week for a job...so no celebrating for Laurel...maybe a little I dont know we'll see....

Hehe I was thinking yesterday about the wedding and I was thinking about what I would say about my maid of honor Alison...and I was like wow we have been friends since Kindergarden who can say that they have known someone for that long and are still friends with them I mean good friends not just aquatances. I love Alison...she always keeps my head on straight when I need it...I love her she is such a great friend always there to put a smile on your face....exoh...

Current Location:	Squirrel Hunting
Current State of Mind:	sleepy
Tunes:	Beck

Yesterday got up super early and went to church, thought it was going to be nice out andwore a tank top...got outside and it was very cold..hehe...then went and got some breakfast at coney with his mom...after that came home and watched a movie and got ready to go over to Charlies aunts house. Went to his aunts for easter dinner it was yummy couldn't eat any meat tho...but I made this fruit salad thing to bring over and everyone loved it YAH!!!! I had a few beers hehe they went down like water....then we went home and popped in Orange county the movie and then went to bed...

I hate mondays...hopefully this week goes by fast...

Current Location:	Under the table
Current State of Mind:	determined
Tunes:	Coldplay